There came moments in my life where suddenly i felt like my mind had stopped racing at 75mph. It would come and leave just like that, and little by little i began noticing how much relief that brought me, and why i never noticed before how hectic everything was for me. As if im a high speed computer having a massive corrupt file being downloaded, slowly im slowing down on the inside and losing strength on the outside. This is something everyone goes through several times in a life time. Should it be this way? Just because its common? No i dont think so, all these years weve learned to adapt to the ways of others. watching movies showing us that everyone else stresses out, everyone else worries about what to wear, everyone else is obssesed with money and bills and credit, everyone else is eating fast foods and everyone else is blissfully happy…so maybe i should be too. And just as easy it is for us to fall with the undertow of that, its simple to break out of it.

Just a thought for the night…

Close your eyes and imagine a field of dry grass, feel the itchiness of it on your feet as you stand in the center of whats almost silence, except for the far distant sound of a city. Sirens and the sound of a car driving past you, doors opening and closing, the ring of life, without a certain distinctive sound. The feeling and vibe youd know anywhere if you were shipped away to a different planet and had to search for society. The sky is in the middle of a never ending dusk, pink from pollution. Light up a cigarette and try to remember why you were last angry and rip it in half as if it were written down on paper. Take a deep breath, cause i bet you havent in a long while and smile, let the chemicals in your body do the job you can assign them to do. Rule them, to rule yourself. As you look outside and are able to judge and fix problems, master that ability within you. All those sorrows youre harvesting, watering, that youve unconsciously forgotten about, let it wash away with those last tears youll be shedding, quit hoarding, theres only so much you can take before it begins to take a toll on your physical physique and inner organs. Remember that the last person you felt jealous over has someone theyre jealous of too, and if you feel yourself lowering to that level than its time to work on yourself as a person so that you have no reason to feel so low of yourself compare to others. Grow up mentally and realize that you are a whole, and the things you say effect what you think, and what you think affect your actions and your actions affect your life. It will affect those eyes of yours, and your skin. Trust the universe and let yourself die so you can be new again, now let go of that cigarette you forgot you needed for the past minutes and let it burn the field around you. Let it burn you, let it burn the people who are crying to hold on to their miserable lives, let it burn all the fictional success and pride, let it burn the root of evil that feeds off our fear and weakness that we proudly parade around as massive consuming idiots. Let all that madness ripple down to nothingness and though you wont witness it, know that life will grow gracefully again, with or without you. Just let it go.